Welcome to my life.

I quit

I quit twitter this morning and sadly, I think I am quitting blogging too… it’s been a 10 year slice, peace.

Smile in your sleep

I’m proud of myself. Although it is not for much. I did not go out this past evening. In fact, I think it is the first week out of the previous three that I have not been an altered state of mind AND at home. I’m proud. What can I say?

I think in order for someone to bounce back to their former self, they need to hit some form of rock bottom. What that rock bottom is depends on the person, but I personally feel I have been in that state for almost three weeks now. It has been terrible. Now I am going to bounce back though. I’m getting the help I need, and I am helping myself with my needs.

Tomorrow (which is now today) will be the start. I am going to start going to the gym again. I am going to get my life organized. I am going to move on. I am going to live a clean, healthy, joyful life. I am going to be the better person. I am going to kill with kindness.

Just watch me.

The worst night of my life

Honestly, I have just finished the worst night of my life. What a waste of time. I should have just gone to sleep when I got home from work.

I really wish I had just gone to sleep.

Oh well.

As long as I try and be strong I can make it to another day.

Part of me doesn’t want to though.

Oh well.

Maybe if I sleep it will all be better.